Kim Kennedy...my brother...your brother...
EVERYBODY'S BROTHER!
KEEP THE FAITH!
05-30-10 The Remission page (under construction) will include Life after Treament and where do we go from here. We are not done, but have certainly accomplished quite a bit and all couldn't be happier with the results to date.
I speak with Kim nearly everyday, not everyday, because I want him to get back to what his normal life was before he had to hear from me on a daily basis. Each morning he calls and tells me how happy he is and what a blessing this day is going to be. He is still gets choked up and is living in bliss.
My promise to him has always been the same, "We will continue our efforts until we have won."
05-22-10 I have been longing to use these words since January 4th...Kim is in complete remission!!! He just got the e-mail from his BIDM Dr. Jamil. I received an emotional call from Kim just before 8AM. He could barely talk. I would have loved to have been a fly on the wall when he looked into Marina and Misha's eyes to let them know their husband and daddy was cancer-free!
Today is going to be a day of reflection for me. I will definitely write more later, but want to absorb all of the emotions that are swirling around my body and mind right now. It is a really strange feeling to smile through tears.
05-20-10 Wow, while Kim was downing two bottles of Barium preparing for his PETScan today he received an email from Dr. Jamile.... it read the following -
There were no signs of cancer detected from the spinal tap!!!!!!
He wrote me a text stating that the next drink he will have after the Barium will be a SAM LIGHT. Oh in due time, in due time.
****I know this is out of order, but I needed to share it with you, as Kim shared it with me - on Sunday he took her to a Singing beach on the north shore in Manchester-By-The-Sea. She with her friend Riley and they had a great day flying kites and being kids. Kim and Hue sat around talking about life and the past, chuckling a mistakes and planning the future. When Misha was getting packed up to go home she turned to her dad and said,
"Simon says you don't be sick anymore."
I tell you what, I cannot wait for this journey to be over. I am spending way too much money on Kleenex. What a great life!
05-18-10 Just got the call....no headache! Kim is up walking around and feels pretty great. The hard part will be keeping him horizontal for the day resting. If you speak to him, then tell him to lay his butt down and rest. It's only for another 24 hours. Let's get that wound to heal properly and move forward. Again, thank you for your positive energies!!
05-17-10 The spinal puncture went well. Kim was in and out of the operating room within 30 minutes. He was instructed to lay flat on his stomach for a minimum of one hour to give the puncture wound a chance to begin the healing process. They also reminded him that caffeine would help with the headaches. He sent me to Starbucks twice to get two large, excuse me...Venti, hot coffees & iced mocha coffees. When I dropped him off he was moving well, although slowly, and was heading upstairs to lay down and relax with Misha until Marina got home. We will see over-night if there are any complications.
05-16-10 It has been a quiet week of anticipation awaiting the spinal tap procedure. Tomorrow is the day and it can't get here soon enough. We will check in at 2PM and hopefully be on the road by 6PM with just soreness in his back.
5-08-10 Home and resting comfortably with Marina and Misha. It will be a Happy Mother's Day tomorrow for the Kennedy family.
The photo below looks like Photoshop or an image that would be sent in one of those forwarding e-mails. It was actually taken by Kim out of his hospital room the night he checked in for Round 6 of chemotherapy. He was lying in bed and saw this warm yellow light penetrating his room. He stood up to see where it was coming from and this is what he saw. Instantly he got a good feeling. We keep talking about white light surrounding him. He has seen it twice now. Once while getting his first PETScan and now entering his Round 6 treatment.
The spinal tap has been postponed until after his Retuxin treatment next week. I will be sending this photo in the email reminder to you all. It's a great screen saver.

05-07-10 We snuck in to see brotherman last night. He was a little groggy, but happy. His new floor of nurses are already in full I love Kim Kennedy mode performing non-medical favors like taking photos of visitors with him. The cumulative effect has really been working overtime on Kim mentally. When speaking with him you will notice he hesitates a bit and needs a second to process your request. Also, he may repeat himself or a story. The chemotherapy causes temporary short term memory loss. During the week, Kim took an amazing photo outside of his hospital window. As you are all aware, we have been summoning white light to surround Kim while he has been undergoing progress tests...I will post the photo as soon as he sends it to me....you will get goose-bumps when you see it.
05-05-10 Yesterday was a good day. We sat with Dr. Jamil and he gave us a recap of Kim's condition from hospital entry to current date and all of the treatment he has been through. Kim entered the hospital on January 4th and was diagnosed with Stage 4 Non-Hodgkin's B-cell Lymphoma. He had large golf ball sized tumors throughout his lymphnodes and it had reached his abdomen. Under microscope the cells acted like plasma cells, which would result in a different diagnosis. During his initial bone marrow sampling they discovered his marrow was plagued with cancer cells.
Dr. Joyce & Dr. Jamil decided that with Kim's diagnosis and his previous healthy physical conditioning that they would attack the cancers cells from every angle. The normal routine would have involved one treatment every two weeks. Since the cancer was prevalent through out his lymphnodes and giving characteristics of plasma cells they decided to use unconventional methods and treatments to regain control of his cells. He was ordered to receive constant 24 hour drip chemotherapy for five days straight for six months. In order to knock out the plasma cells they included a very powerful chemotherapy called Velcade. You may have seen this hanging from the chemo tree in the picture on 02-28-10 entry with the fried chicken and hot sauce below. It is the orange fluid. Retuxin had been administered between treatments and may continue in the future even when he has been discharged from his scheduled treatment program. Up to Round 4 they were still traces of proteins in his urine that concerned the doctors, but they stayed their course. He explained that he is now completed Round 5 of treatment and his newest test results indicated the complete absence of cancer cells in his bone marrow. His recent urine samples were free of proteins. PETScan results on 02-26-10 indicated all cancer cells were acting as if they were in remission and his lymphnodes had returned to normal size. On 02-10-10 he received a spinal tap, which also revealed positive test results indicating that there were no cancer cells present in the spinal and brain fluid. There is one more of PETScan and spinal tap coming. Unfortunately, with all of those positive results the doctors still need to go into the spine, because the human body shields the chemotherapy delivered in the blood stream. Somehow the cancer cells have figured this out and that is where they try to go to hide.
We could not have hoped for better news other than Dr. Jamil & Dr. Joyce saying good-bye...
For this we will have to wait. Watching brotherman interact with the doctors, nurses and all other hospital staff I get the feeling there will never truly be a goodbye. These people will remain in his life forever.
Since there have been so many complications inserting the PIC line they placed it under fluoroscopy guidance. He had been gone for 90 minutes and I just knew something had not gone as planned. Unfortunately the stainless steel wire that guides the PIC line toward the heart got stuck. Since it is inserted inside the soft tissue of his veins they could not just yank on it to remove it. They ended up inserting a smaller wire adjacent to it and moving to smoothly back and forth to dislodge the original. They were successful and removed both wires. His bicep is quite swollen and sore from the irritation. He didn't complain. Instead he told me this story...while waiting in the radiology room he became a little anxious. Outloud he asked why it was taking so long? From a corner of the room he heard a familiar voice call out to him to be quiet. It was Dr. Joyce his hospital Angel. She came over and grabbed his hand and started to comfort him. She explained with tears in her eyes that Round 6 was going to be very heavy in fluids and heavier in emotions. We are reaching the probable end. She rubbed his arm telling him he was a "sweet man" and she cared for him very much. Of course brotherman lost it. They have a connection that will last multiple lifetimes. He told me this story when he got back into the room. Even when he was talking tears fell from his eyes and he could not contain his emotions. I do not know everything, but listening and not speaking seems to bring out his emotions. He needs these releases as much as our love. So if you are kind enough to visit, please give him a hug and let him tell you his story. It's an amazing journey he is taking right now.
He is located in room #1162 on the 11th floor of the Reisman wing on Feldberg building.
05-04-10 We are heading in for 8AM. Hopefully with the scheduling of the Radiology Department he will get his PIC line set and start the chemotherapy dripping relatively quickly. The clock does not starting until the bags are dripping. Right now he will be in until Saturday morning, if all goes well. As they say on the dive charters, the pool is open. In this case the door is open. Visitors are welcome.
05-02-10 Round 6 has been postponed until tomorrow due to scheduling conflicts with the radiology department. With all of the complications with inserting the recent PIC lines and blood samples, the doctor refuses to even attempt the insertion with out ultrasound and radiology guidance.
04-27-10 Turn the music up...it is a Beautiful Day! Brotherman just got the results for the bone marrow and he is CLEAN!!! So much anxiety goes into waiting for these results and we all kept a positive outlook and we were blessed with these results. If anyone tells you positive thinking and prayers do not work they are leading a misguided life.
The doctors have decided to postpone the spinal tap for now. Kim begins his Round 6 chemotherapy treatment on Monday, May 3rd and is still currently feeling the effects of the last treatment never-mind the bone marrow procedure.
The spinal tap will most likely happen the last day of his treatment or the following week.
04-25-10 The weekend was quiet. Kim was still feeling the affects of the Round 5 chemotherapy session. The doctors warned him that with each successive treatment the effects would linger longer and longer. It is not pain, but more of a feeling of being underwater and several steps behind oneself. His energy level is low, but spirit is high. The bone marrow pain is still on the forefront of his thoughts, especially when he sits. He mentioned to me again that he seems to block out the pain, which in itself is amazing, because most patients seem to focus on it.
We had an extremely successful fundraising event on Sunday - The HeadShot Clinic. It was amazing! Mother Mariolga checked in with Brotherman several times throughout the day. The generosity got him choked up again and he had a little release, which is good for him. See the notes on the HeadShot Clinic page or the Successful page.
04-22-10 all is quiet heading into the weekend. We are awaiting the results (Tuesday or Wednesday) from the bone marrow and the scheduling of the spinal tap early next week.
04-21-10 today was an emotional day. We started off as usual, laughing and talking about this and that. Kim went in for his blood count, then came out and told me he was going in immediately for his bone marrow scrape. Anxiously I sat in the waiting room for him to come out. Thirty minutes later her returned with a little limp from the procedure. The first attempt to drill into his hip was unsuccessful, so they had to perform a second sample closer to his spine.
The doctors informed Kim he would undergo Retuxin treatment. This was unexpected, but we went to the room and waited for them to set everything up. The nurse came in to secure the IV line port. She probed him looking for his vein, but they have become very flat and non-responsive. Poor Kim was really feeling the pricking from the needle. She eventually gave up and called in a specialist.
While we waited Kim's mother called and was startled that Kim was in the hospital again. She resides in Arizona and is unable to be here on a daily basis. Kim informed her that they were doing tests and jokingly mentioned that he had already been pricked 5 times today and he wasn't done yet. She began to cry for her son, which in turn set the tears in motion for Kim. If you recall from earlier postings, Kim has not shed a sympathy tear since he was diagnosed. He has only gotten upset a few times. Each time is when a family member breaks down and he feels helpless and unable to console them. He also broke down twice with your outpour of love and support.
We finished the day around 4PM. He is scheduled for blood counts again on Saturday. The spinal tap was postponed to next week. I will be sending out another white light request to all of you.
04-20-10 tomorrow Kim is scheduled for his blood counts (white & red cell) and the bone marrow procedure. The bone marrow will be around 10AM, so if you would be so kind to think positive thougths and surround Kim with white light we can hope for similar results to the PETScan. They will be testing to see if there are any cancer cells present in his bone marrow. For obvious reason we want there to be zero.
04-16-10 home and resting with family. Updates on bone marrow and spinal tap's appointments to follow.
04-15-10 quick visit yesterday. Kim was feeling groggy and tired. He awakens with a heavy head each morning as the treatment moves forward. The last bag of chemo was attached around 3:30PM and drips for 24 hours. Then he will get two additional bags of medicine, which release at a much faster rate, before going home. It looks like a perfect weekend to recover with the rain coming. He will be able to rest easily, unless Misha goes into hyper-drive, because she is not out running in the park. Good news, Kim has actually gained 10 pounds since entering the hospital this session. Most of it is water weight from the IV, but there is definitely some fat being placed on them bones from all of the homemade food. He did not have to order one lunch or dinner this entire stay. Food has become his obsession during his stays since he cannot focus too long to work on his computer. Although he tinkers with Facebook all day.
As mentioned before, the upcoming tests are huge. No matter the result, he remains confident that the doctors are doing their best and has complete faith in them.
04-13-10 the doctors have laid out a plan for Kim. His cancer cells were behaving like they were going into remission as viewed by the PETScan. His blood counts have been great, however, there are still residual proteins in his urine and that is of concern to them. He will continue with the planned treatment throughout round 5 of chemotherapy. He will be dismissed on Friday to go home and rest with his family for the weekend. Next week he will re-enter the hospital for blood counts, probably on Monday. Sometime during the week he will undergo another bone marrow procedure where they enter through his back and scrape out marrow in the hip. They will be testing to see if the cancer has spread into the bone.
This procedure would normally concern Kim, but it is the next one that has his undivided attention. Somewhere before the end of the week they will perform another spinal tap. You will be receiving white light emails requesting all of your intention surround him during this time and prayers that he does not end up in the condition as before. He mentioned to me that he would take the pain and suffering if the tests results came back negative for cancer. I am just looking for both.
He had visitors scattered throughout the day and is in high spirits. He has enough food for the week that he does not need to eat any hospital food.
He is so excited about his recovery that we are planning on running the 10k Falmouth Road Race in August. It may end up being a nice walk, but for now it is a goal. You are all welcome to join. We could have an Everybodys Brother team!
04-12-10 Arrived at Brotherman's apartment around 9:30AM. Marina and Misha were home and we chatted for a bit. It was time to leave and then I witnessed the hard part that I was blind to before. Marina remains stoic as he grabs his bag, but little Misha gets confused, then angry and ultimately very sad. She has made the correlation of Kim going to the hospital as Kim leaving for a week and returing home exhausted and "smelly". She doesn't realized it is the chemotherapy pouring our of his skin that smells. She associates it with sweaty gym smelly. Let's just say that I am glad I ate breakfast, because I had such a lump in my throat watching the goodbye that I would not have been able to swallow anything for hours.
We checked him into room "777" for the week. He unpacked his overnight bag, drew the curtain and roped them off with a latex glove to let the maximum sunshine into his room. He tells all of the nurses that they have to use a large latex glove, because it works best. They just giggle. the last thing he does is place his family photo on the wall. He brings this photo each treatment - the same one from Family page of website.
The standard procedures take place. He dons on his johnnie, gets weighed and his height measured. Just so you know, he has been lying for years...he is only 5'-8 1/2" not 5'-9". He has been at 160 lbs +/- since Round 2, which is good, because most patients lose weight, but his appetite is solid. They came in to draw his blood and the results were good. His counts were where they wanted or expected meaning he was ready for another dose. All chemotherapy is produced specifically for the patient's levels and tolerance.
We didn't talk much about it, but we both knew he was dreading the next procedure...the PIC line. On the way over he was telling me about the PIC nurse that he had the most confidence of placing the line. Guess who walked in?
Unfortunately, I wish I could have stopped there. She did a great job relaxing Kim. She spent a lot of time with the UltraSound locating the right vein to choose. Sadly, our brother's veins are collapsing and the scars are numerous. He has been poked and prodded with needles since January and know they are letting him know that they are tired. Kim sings a different version of the Who classic "Pinball Wizard"...he changes it to the "Pincushion Patient". When the PIC nurse was setting the stainless steel lead wire on the first attempt she encountered massive scarring that bent the stainless steel wire 90 degrees. On the next try, she went into a smaller vein, only to hit a nerve bundle, which sent electric shock waves travelling down from his elbow to his fingers. Thank God I wasn't videoing this one. I would have dropped the camera. I now know what a parent feels like when they see their child cry. I was helpless.
She immediately removed the wire and apologized. He needed to go to Radiology to have the line placed under constant X-ray. His arm was very sore at this point. The electrical shocks subsided in his fingers and we tried to focus on other things while we waited. Hours went by and we talked about everything under the sun including the sun, clouds and view from his window. Ultimately it always leads back to Marina and Misha.
Around 5PM the radiology department called and had an opening for Kim. The nurses rushed him down and they placed the PIC line deep into his right bicep. That arm is very sore, so please be mindful if visiting him to hug him from the left hand side.
We shared a pepperoni pizza from the kitchen and he took his pre-chemo medicines, which are extensive. Suzanne came in a little after 7PM to hook up his chemotherapy bags, even though her shift ended at 7PM. She finished up before 8PM. He was now settled in and I said goodnight.
04-11-10 Kim checks in tomorrow for Round 5 of treatment. Yesterday he visited and we talked about his progress and how things were going medically. He told me that the doctors informed him that he was going to have another spinal tap. Obviously he was not happy with this news, but smiles and understands it is all par for the course. He has total faith in his doctors and knows we will all be praying for him during the procedure. If you were unaware of the first spinal tab, Kim fell into the 10% of patients that have the procedure which results in a spinal fluid leak. It is an awful experience and I do not even wish to cover it again. Please read the entry from 2-10-10 to 2-25-10 if you would like to review. I will keep you all posted to when the spinal tap will take place. I believe it will be at the end of this chemotherapy treatment.
04-05-10 Kim is heading back to Beth Israel Deaconess Hospital today for more blood count work and possibly another white blood cell booster. His back is aching with a throbbing pain in his spine at the spinal tap point. The excitement Saturday night wiped him out all day Sunday and it may have been too much for his physical body to handle right now, but mentally he told me that it lifted him so high that the pain he is feeling right now is worth it. Let's hope that holds true with the blood tests.
04-04-10 Happy Easter to All ~ what a night. Last night I met some amazing individuals that love My Brother very much. The pre-screening went great and for all of those that were fortunate enough to attend you were witnessing talent on screen and off with the "it" factor. Special thanks to Kevin & Evalena is under the Successful Events page.
After the show, Kurt Steinberg hosted the Wrap Party at the Sheraton Boston up on the 25th floor with a suite that spanned the width of the building. We had amazing views of Fenway Park, the Charles River and all of Boston. Kurt provided us with food fit for a king including lobster rolls, shrimp cocktail, roast beef, turkey, veggie rolls, cheese platter, dips, beers, red & white wines. The rooms were filled with a buzz and people were high off the show. We were blessed with a special guest appearance by Kim. His reactions to everyone were as great as theirs to him. It was a special night.
04-03-10 Heading to Dry Dock for the last time to shoot the Everybody's Brother T-shirts with Marina. I'll try not to let it go to my head! We will post them on the website as soon as the pix are ready. Then we are off to Serena and THE RATTS.
Unfortunately, I received the letter of thanks from Dana Faber letting me know that I was not an exact marrow match for the young patient. I can only hope that one of the others that were being tested were her match. Please consider registering as a donor.
03-28-10 enjoying his time away from the hospital and enjoying his family for the weekend.
03-27-10 they released Kim last night and he is home resting.
03-26-10 This is the last day of treatment for Round 4 and they may let Kim go home tonight or sleep the night and go home in the morning. He is doing well and is excited to be reunited with his girls.
03-25-10 I had the chance to visit Kim tonight and was able to surprise him with the Everybody's Brother T-Shirts. He was so excited and blown away. He loves the design and always the intent. We were joined by Richie & Amanda. Some good laughs and stories were told for hours. It always amazes me that when I meet "his" friends how similar we are and easily we are friends. We are all so similar inside it is simple to see how we all love him and he loves us. The t-shirts and visitors took him out of the funk that Misha's love left him in the night before. I love to make him smile.
03-24-10 He is counting down the days to go home. He had a visit from Marina and Misha today. Since Misha is under the age of 12 and his daughter, the hospital allows Kim to visit her in the solarium outside of the oncology ward. This is to reduce the risk of infection to the other cancer patients. Since Kim lives with her, he would be subject to the same germs once released from the hospital when his white cells would be at their lowest. It was a wonderful visit until it was time to say good-bye. Poor little Misha had a meltdown and did not want to leave him. She is extremely intelligent and is starting to understand what is going on and seeing the pattern of him going to the hospital and getting weaker each visit. Of course this broke Kim's heart to watch her cry, but at the same moment filled his heart with love as he does not want to be separated from either of them. This is beginning to be the front line of his battle emotionally. There is nothing we can do, other than visit him to keep his mind off of his home.
03-23-10 Spoke with Brotherman yesterday and he told me had visitors that brought him smiles and laughter. The pain from the second PICC line has gone away and now it's just a waiting game until he can go home again. During the treatments he gets what is known as chemo brain, which is a condition where his short term memory lapses, which is typical especially since they are cumulative. Other than that, he is just losing energy. His motivation and spirit are still high.
03-22-10 Whew! This guy is amazing. We started off the day laughing and sipping coffee from Starbucks before he checked in for Round 4. It is calming to sit, chat and take it all in beforehand. It started like any other time we checked in. The nurses all greeted him with smiles and giggles. We checked him into room 773 on Feldberg at 9AM. We were like two buds on vacation. Even though the rooms have two beds, the other is always for emergency holdings only. Each oncology patient has the utmost privacy and respect at this amazing hospital. So, off go my shoes and up on the other bed I laid down and we were goofing about the weekend and how fun it was to see Misha all dressed up with her new (to her) rhinestone purse and sunglasses walking around in sweatpants thinking she is a movie-star. The next thing you know we are ordering lunch. His nurse came in several times to check on him and explained that the IV staff was backed up and so we continued about our business. Soon one of the staff came in to draw his blood to check his white/red cell blood count. Recently, Kim had been poked and prodded so much that his veins were scarring and flattening out. The IV nurse was precise and succeeded on the first attempt. An hour later, the IV PICC line nurse came in and the procedure went as close to painless as possible considering the application. We both sighed in relief, because he was dreading the PICC line. It is extremely uncomfortable, messy and causes pain and inflammation. The line enters the arm at or around the elbow joint, follows up to the arm pit and down to just above the heart. The queazy feeling that was running through my body was incredible. I know he HAS to do it, but he does not have to be so graceful and pleasant. The nurses continue to compliment him on his personality and demeanor. The next step in the process is the Xray team comes down with a mobile machine and verifies the tubing is located close enough to the heart. Inside the tubing is a metal wire that snakes along the path to identify its location. She finished around 1:30PM. His nurse kept checking back in informing us that the IV team was backed up. This would be the nurse that would administer the chemotherapy IV bags into the PICC port. Four hours passed and a new team of PICC nurses came into the room. They informed us that the Xray determined the PICC line inside of his chest was 2" short and they needed to remove it and place a longer one inside. The silence was deafening. My heart was breaking for him. I am actually shaking writing this even now. He swallowed hard and said, "let's do it, I trust you guys." As soon as the nurse started to clean the area with the disinfectant it started to burn. She removed the shorter line, cleaned the area again and pushed the new line in place. His vein was throbbed like a beating heart and tried to resist the intruding line, but the nurse pushed onward, upward and then downward in place to just above his heart. The pain now radiated from his elbow all the way up to his shoulder. They placed him on 24 hour heat pack therapy to draw red blood cells to the area to provide oxygen and healing power to the area. Soon the Xray tech was taking another shot and then we waited again. We ordered dinner and I tried to keep his mind off of the pain. We returned to conversations of Marina, Misha, photography and scuba diving. How lucky he was to have everybody around him and what great things he was going to accomplish when he was all better. Around 6:30 we were informed the PICC was in the correct location and the chemotherapy IV nurse would be down shortly. Somewhere around 7PM Kim had a surprise visitor, Heidi B. His doctor came in around 8PM, checked him over, talked about his treatment plan. He was followed by the IV nurse. She had hooked him up and receiving his miracle medicines by 9PM. Now the clock starts ticking. He has 5 days straight of the chemotherapy IV and then one day of observation. He will be there until Saturday sometime. He was thrilled to see Heidi. I cannot emphasize the importance of visitation from here on out. The mental warfare is taking its toll on him. If you are healthy and have a little free time, please drop in to say hello. Since this webpage is for all viewers, I am not going to post the videos taken during his procedures here. They are very graphic and should be viewed only by adults with strong stomachs. If you would like to see them, please visit the Hospital Procedures page.
03-20-10 tomorrow Kim enters Beth Israel Deaconess Hospital tomorrow for Round 4. This time is a little different. Normally he would go through the 24/7 chemotherapy drip for 5 days, be observed for 1 day and sent home only to return the day after for an outpatient day treatment of Retuxin (chemo). The doctors have decided to reverse the applications. Kim assures me this is not due to concerns, but their aggressive "out-of-the-box" treatment style. It essentially shakes things up and does not allow the cancer to observe routines and plan its attack. Check in is at 9AM. He will have the central line placed in and be tucked into his hotel bed by 12PM.
03-19-10 it has been a quiet week. Kim has only revealed the mental toll that the treatments are taking on him. His spirit is still strong, but definitely maturing to the realization of his experiences. Today we were together when he ran into an older beautiful woman that recognized "the look" and approached him. They chatted about their experiences and stories. It turned out she is a survivor of the same B-cell non-Hodgkins lymphoma. Her first battle was 15 years ago. Unfortunately she was infected again 2 years ago. Although it was a different type, it surfaced the mental scars that were tucked away so neatly in her memory. She is 72 years old now and has beaten cancer again. She was an inspiration to Kim. All survivors are. Just imagine the impact he will have on others when he can wear the title survivor.
03-12-10 this week has primarily been a good week. No real side effects to speak of with the exception of the cumulative effect which results in lower white blood cell count and lack of energy between chemotherapy sessions. The way it models is the first week he is discharged, by the 7th day both his white cells (defensive cells in the blood stream) and energy levels drop to the lowest level. As the next week progresses his white cells will bounce back along with his energy level. As he peaks again, it is time for another round of chemotherapy and the cycle begins again. Today his white cell count was low, so the doctor (angel) order another round of Neupogen (filgrastim) which is a drug given to patients who have neutropenia (low neutrophil count). An injection of Neupogen stimulates white blood cell production. It is a clear liquid that is usually given as a shot (injection). The side effects are bone pain and fever.
03-10-10 no news, but good news to report. Kim had more blood work drawn and the doctors were yet again encouraged by the results. He has no headaches other than a stiff neck to contend with this time. He has lost a little energy, but is gaining more every day with the sunshine and signs of spring. His next session of chemotherapy has been tentatively set for March 22nd.
03-05-10 Kim was released last night from round 3 of chemotherapy and sent home. Today he went in for his outpatient dosage of Retuxin, which is takes a physical toll on the body and mind. The medicine is invasive and causes severe allergic reactions in a majority of patience, so the hospital administers an IV Benadryl drip as a preventative. But none of that made a difference today, because today was his little angle's birthday-Misha turned 5 years old. Kim and family celebrated together in their apartment with a homemade meal, cake and pie. He continually reminds me that he doesn't mind fighting this disease, because he feels he is taking the hit for someone that may not have been able to make it. He never loses focus of what he is living for and he was staring that focus right in the eyes today.
03-03-10 spent several hours with Brotherman today and witnessed the mental/emotional toll that the therapy is taking on him while alone. Even the greatest optimist dips into reality while tubes are sticking out of your arms and bags of fluorescent liquid are dripping into your veins. He perked right up when I entered the room. We talked for hours on end. We made each other laugh out loud. At one point, I thought the nursing staff or a family member from another patient room would actually ask us to keep it down, but then we got the nursing staff involved and the laughter resembled the wave at a football game swirling through the ward. We walked "the loop" a half dozen times, each pass brought us by the nurses station and the giggles started. The doctors look at him with joy and amazement about his enthusiasm to knock this thing out. It's very emotional to witness. He still gets choked up while reading the guestbook posts, Facebook, get well cards and when he hears the stories of planning for fundraising events. We really have relieved the financial burden from his volume of worries. He told me he is at peace now, which freaked me out, because I have always associated peace with passing, but he meant here on Earth. He cited that his work laptop went crashing to the floor while trying to place the computer into it's protective briefcase. Three months ago this would have placed him into a tailspin. He said he watched it fall, turned to his chemotherapy stand and his blood pressure never rose one degree. He's teaching us all even from the hospital. He loves that we are now all connected. He is truly all about Friends & Family.

03-02-10 Spoke with Kim and he is beginning to feel the effects of the chemotherapy in the form of exhaustion. As you can tell by Facebook, he still has energy to post, still answers every telephone call and tries to respond to every text and e-mail. He has a special friend assisting with Misha this week and sitting by his bed side.
02-28-10 We walked in today and this is what we saw...

yes, that is fried chicken and HOT SAUCE! Apparently Kim was celebrating the good news from his PET Scan results. A dear friend had brought him a home cooked meal and he was loving it. During our visit he received a surprise from another visitor that brought him in a copy of his last shoot, which made the cover of The Improper Bostonian. He instantly went into photographer mode and was explaining the lighting, make-up and the rest of the process. He truly loves what he does and totally forgets about the lines in his arm when he speaks of his family, friends and life's work.
02-27-10 Kim is back in his "Hotel Room" for the week receiving Round 3 of chemotherapy. Today the uncomfortable procedure of placing the multi-port IV (PICC) Peripherally Inserted Central Catheter line, which serves as the entry point for all the chemotherapy fluid, IV, blood and other necessary medicines during his stay. Last session I brought him in and witnessed this procedure. It wasn't pretty and our friend was quite uncomfortable, but kept on making the nurse smile during the entire procedure with his funny stories. So, he has five days of treatment with 2 days of observation. I will be visiting several days this week and will keep you posted.
02-26-10 "REMARKABLE HOW THE CANCER IS RESPONDING TO THE CHEMOTHERAPY!" not verbatim, but what the doctor said to Kim regarding his PET Scan!!!! Keep the faith and positive energy all around him it IS working! Believe it or not, I am speechless.
02-25-10 We are still awaiting the results of the PET Scan. Kim goes back into Beth Israel Deaconess Hospital on Saturday, February 27th for the third round of chemotherapy. We are assuming that the results will be presented to him at that time. His headaches are now completely gone. He is feeling very energetic and ready to receive his next treatment.
02-20-10 Now we wait until Monday or Tuesday for the results of the PET Scan. Kim told me that while he was in the machine having the scan done they made him close his eyes. He said when he opened his eyes he couldn't see anything other than a ring of white light around him.
02-19-10 Today I am writing to ask all of you to think of Kim and surround him with positive energy as he is undergoing the most critical test to date.
The PET Scan - Positron Emission Tomography (PET) is a powerful imaging technique that holds great promise in the diagnosis and treatment of many diseases, particularly cancer. A non-invasive test, PET scans accurately image the cellular function of the human body. In a single PET scan your physician can examine your entire body. PET scanning provides a more complete picture, making it easier for your doctor to diagnose problems, determine the extent of disease, prescribe treatment, and track progress.
His appointment begins at 8:30 at Beth Israel Deaconess Hospital and will last for most of the day. What I am requesting is that we all surround him with positive energy. If you are religious, then pray for him. If you are spiritual, then surround him with healing white light. If you are atheist, then think positively about his recovery.
I would ask that we please remember to think of Marina and Misha during these times. The anxiety that they are undergoing today is immeasurable.
Thank you all.
2-12-10 Kim is back in BIDM for his 4th liter of Caffeine IV drip this week. Kim's brother-in-law, Obed Sullivan was the IBF Champion and now Kim has self-proclaimed the title - "IV"F Champion. He sings songs like The Who's Pinball Wizard and changes the lyrics to "Pincushion Patient". The doctor agreed to delay the next procedure in hope's the last one may just be taking longer to heal the wound in the spine.
2-11-10 Visited Kim today. The headaches have not gone away. They increased his pain medicine, so he was able to eat, talk on the telephone and walk around a bit. Because of the headaches he was unable to eat and lost the weight he had gained back from the first round of chemotherapy. He has an appointment tomorrow (2-12-10) and they will perform another procedure if the headaches have not gone away or the level has not drastically been reduced. Looks like Tuesday or Wednesday for the PET Scan.
2-10-10 On Saturday, 2-6, Kim had a spinal tap. He had an injection of Methotrexate, which is injected into the lower spinal column and travels to the brain. Methotrexate inhibits the metabolism of folic acid and is used to treat cancer in this region of the body. There is a 90% chance that patients receive no follow-up pain other than soreness injection site. Unfortunately, Kim fell into the 10% and has migraine headaches comparable to meningitis. If you spoke to him on the telephone he would muscle up a smile and try to joke with you, but I was watching the pain. He could not lift if head up. It has something to do with the equilibrium of the spinal/brain fluid being offset by the injection of the Methotrexate and the puncturing of the membrane around the spinal column leaking fluid. Tuesday, we went to Beth Israel for tests and caffeine pills for the headache. They doctor determined the symptoms to sever for pills and placed Kim on 2 Liters of caffeine IV. Each bag to an hour to empty and their hopes were that the headache would have reduced or been eliminated, but to no avail. Their sympathy for Kim is deep. They truly love him and are routing as hard for him and his family as all of us. Today, Kim went in and had a procedure where they injected a fluid mass outside of the spinal column to inhibit the leaking. He was there all day again. For the next 48 hours he needs to lie on his back or stomach as still as possible to allow the procedure to do its magic. More tests on Friday & Sunday for red & white blood cell counts to determine his immune systems strength. Next week they will give him the PET Scan (see below 2-6-10 entry). Once they book the appointment I will be sending out an e-mail requesting everyone to simultaneously hold white light all around him during this test and until the results are back. This test will show the progress of the treatment and its affect on the cancer. Keep the Faith.
2-7-10 The nurses in Stoneman building released Kim with sadness as his next session will begin in approximately two weeks and he will be back with the original nursing staff in the Feldberg building. They threatened to do everything in their power to get him back in their ward for selfish reasons. I am telling you this guy is a Rock Star! Some of his special treatments may seem silly to us on the outside, but are huge privileges to him. Saturday one of the nurses made him a freshly made peanut butter & jelly sandwich with a chocolate frappe to wash it down. It was one of the best meals he has ever eaten. K-squared was rooting for the underdog Saints to win...almost in parallel to his battle, but he is not the underdog in this fight. With all of the talent on his side this will be a lopsided victory.
2-6-10 Kim completed round 2 of his chemotherapy treatments with positive energy all around him. He again has all of the nursing staff under his Kennedy spell. It's hilarious. He is now waiting for his PET Scan - Positron Emission Tomography (PET) is a powerful imaging technique that holds great promise in the diagnosis and treatment of many diseases, particularly cancer. A non-invasive test, PET scans accurately image the cellular function of the human body. In a single PET scan your physician can examine your entire body. PET scanning provides a more complete picture, making it easier for your doctor to diagnose problems, determine the extent of disease, prescribe treatment, and track progress. This will most likely happen Friday in order for the latest treatment to take its course.
2-5-10 his voice was much stronger today. He was back to the positive jovial nut as he is known. Once again planning our dive trips to hunt the elusive New England lobster and fresh sea scallop. His promises of a bigger and better Lobster Bash this summer are growing each day as he defeats the cancer slowly, but surely. Watch out, this is going to be some party.
2-4-10 today Kim received a blood transfusion. His red blood cells were low and he sounded weak while speaking with him over the telephone. He was told that this was par for the course and that the transfusion would allow his body to fight better.
2-2-10 today Kim started round 2 of his recovery medicine. We walked through the halls of the Beth Israel Hospital and you would have thought it was a rock concert with all of the doctors, nurses and cleaning staff glowing with smiles and adornment for our brother. It never ceases to amaze me how quickly he can touch someone's life. He was very brave and confided in me that these were his Angels and they were going to make him better, so he could personally thank each and every one of You for your love and support. He is truly overwhelmed with joy and gratitude that he actually tears up and cries, because he just cannot fathom the love that is surrounding him. Let's keep our finger's crossed, as Misha does with Kim, and pray that the healing juice running through his body will eradicate this monster and free our brother of this illness, soon.
1-29-10 had the chance to visit Kim at home today. He was in great spirits as usual.
His next chemotherapy session begins Sunday, January 29th. He will be in the hospital for 5 days of 24 hour slow drip chemo and several days of observation. Once deemed healthy enough the Doctors will release him back to Marina's care at home. During the two week period he is home recuperating from the chemo, Kim will have to go in for several day treatments and to deal with whatever the next side effect may be in store for him.
This will be life for Kim, Marina and Misha - a.k.a. Snacee (snAY-C) for the next 6 months or greater. Please find it in your heart to visit the "How Can I Help" page and donate as often as possible. We will be his frontline of financial support. In typical Kim fashion, he is not worried about himself, he is worried about his family. Please help alleviate the worries and donate today.
KEEP THE FAITH!